Um... March? Already?

Woah.  Didn't we *just* start February yesterday?!?

Like it's been since he started daycare, T-man was sick at the start of the month.  Another cold that aggravated his allergies and asthma.  Poor kid just can't catch a break!

Monster has been doing great!  Turned 10 at the beginning of the month and has stayed healthy all month.

For me the most exciting part of February was finally ordering a new DSLR camera.  Mine is 7 years old and desperately needs replacing.  I haven't really used it much over the past few years because it's not been in the best of shape.  It works just fine but has its quirks.  My new beauty should arrive tomorrow and I am so excited to start playing with it!!

I didn't complete nearly enough in February.

I've fallen completely behind in my Bible reading.  To the point, I'm not reading it at all.  Shame on me!

I manged to read only 1 book last month:  Dawn of the Aspects by Richard Knaak.  I desperately want to get through as much of my World of Warcraft lore as I can this year but I'm not sure how much that will end up being.  *sad face*

Heh.  I made it to the gym.... once.  Yeah I'm that lame.  I think setting the goal to go daily may have been overkill for me as many days I just can't find the time or I'm too tired from the previous day to want to go.  I need to figure out a solution.  I need and want to go but just can't seem to make myself go.

My WIP that I finished for February was my first mood blanket.  Yes I said first!  After starting the project in January, I realized if I kept up with that blanket like I was doing I would have a "Jonathan" blanket.  (My mom and sister will understand that reference.  LOL)  Instead, I've decided to break up the year into several blankets.  Each blanket will represent 2 months of the year. I'll show it off when I've finished weaving in the ends... heh.

Now it's on to March and April.... I'm still trying to figure out how I want to do this one but I won't allow myself to fall too far behind while I'm figuring it out.

I did better with taking more photographs.  Of course, all those photos were just taken on my iPhone but more photos nonetheless.  *smirk*

I completed my 28 Days of Me photo project.  It was actually kind of fun!  Although I realize now why people say I need to smile more.  Haha  The truth is.... I smile a lot!  Just not in photos.  That's who I have always been.  Even my mom said so when I had my senior photos done.  Her favorite was one of the few I wasn't smiling in.

Here's just a few of my faves:

Monday Memories

It's hard to imagine that in just 6 short days, I will be the proud mother of a 10 year old.  How did it go so fast?

His life has been a rollercoaster.  Lots of ups and downs, curves and loops.  As hard as it's been, I don't think I'd trade any of it for the world.  He has made me grow as a person and learn things I never thought I'd know.  I am a far better person because of him!

Happy (early) birthday, Dwight!

Monday Memories

For years I've dabbled in poetry.

I say dabbled because I seem to only write in overly emotional times.... or when it's an assignment for school.  Heh

I can go years between "sessions" of writing.

I've been reminiscing lately so I decided that I want to share a few of my favorites.  I hope you will enjoy them as much as I do!

DISCLAIMER:  All these poems are my original work.  Copyright is held by me so please don't use or publish these without my express permission.  Email requests to missindyjones@gmail.com.  Thank you!

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FIGHT

(written 1998; published 2001 in "Divining Beauty", pg 119)

At the end of the day,
I will stand and say,

"Standing for what's right,
I will fight all through the night!"

When they stand and say
that I am as senseless as the day,

I will say,
"Nay! For I am the day!"

"And the day will come
that I have won,

And you will be left here
to cry to yourself, my dear.

No one has the right
to stand and say, 'Don't fight!'

Fight for our land
come join and lend a hand.

And with the sun's new light,
we will stand and fight!"

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ALWAYS & FOREVER

(written 1997/98; published 2001 in "Of Love and Dedication: Vol 2", pg 52)

He left years ago,
returning only a few times.
To visit his family,
he had left so long ago.
Seeing his smiling face,
they remembered him when he was a boy.
He'd changed so much!
Now he was a man like his father.
He returned to visit
and left once again,
to return again in years to come.
Once again he'd return,
to see his family.
He'd remember them,
Always!

Always & Forever!

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THE FORGOTTEN ONE

(written 2008)

I am the one who always comes last.
Every day, all the way through my past.
No one sees what has been done,
As I am The Forgotten One.

My world revolves every day without thought.
No care of my feelings is usually sought.
Loneliness is not to be the way of life,
But it deeply cuts my soul like a knife.

Tears drip down hard as I cry.
Now the page is no longer dry.
I try with all my strength and might,
To locate the words that are right.

I sit writing of emotional pain.
Yet it seems I have little to gain.
All I want is to be cared for,
But I only see the back of the door.

Battered, tattered, and bruised I feel.
But daily I learn how to deal.
Every day, day in and day out,
It takes all I have not to shout.

Why am I always the one who comes last?
Every single day, all the way through my past!
Can no one see what has been done?
No, of course not, as I am The Forgotten One.

Long time, no update!

I'd say it's been a while!  Well over a year.... but what can I say? I've been BUSY!

In October 2011, I finally found a job.  After nearly a year of searching, I was hired on to work in a boarding home with elderly people.  I was honestly hesitant at first.... I mean... I do caregiving every day at home.  Would I like doing it outside the house too?  I can say wholeheartedly, I LOVE MY JOB!  The hardest part is saying goodbye but helping those who need it, it's worth it!  This past year has been amazing!

As for the tykes.... well.... they keep me busy!

In March we finally got an individual provider (IP) approved through the state to come in and care for Monster.  We'd been using an in-home company but we're having difficulties with the staff.  Since Erin came on, it has been wonderful and a lot less stressful!  She's amazing with both boys and they love her to pieces!

Monster has been pretty stable this year.... or so I thought.  Back in June we did an overnight EEG at Children's to decide where we would go in treating his epilepsy.  We were scheduled to be there for 48 hours but after 13 hours and 8 seizures, the doctor said he felt they had enough data and we could go home.  Little did we know, he had way more than he needed!  In that 13 hour time frame, Monster not only had the 8 seizures we saw and documented.... he had a TOTAL of 43 seizures.  FORTY-THREE!  And other than the 8 we saw, NONE of the others had any physical indications that he was having a seizures.  I knew he had a lot... but I about fell out of the chair with the doctor gave me that number.

We have since switched him off one medication and onto another.  Unfortunately, we haven't seen any results.  The doctors have said before with each new medication we try, our chances of controlling the seizures decrease.  We will keep pushing on though and do whatever we can to get them under as much control as possible.

Tornado.... wow.  He's definitely a tornado!  Hard to believe he's going to be 3 in just 3 days!  Where has those last 3 years gone?  One minute he's a small baby whimpering at us, now he's a little boy telling us what he wants.  Such new territory for me!  Haha  But he can be a lot of fun even though he's just as much of a headache.... like most toddlers I'm sure.

Indy has had an eventful year as well.  The beginning of the year saw the sale of his company to another local company.  He's gone from owner to employee.  It's been a change for him but I think he's enjoying it.

I'll leave you with a few newish photos of the clan!  Enjoy!